8 mind-numbingly stupid years

I started this blog when I was just a teen out of high school, 8 years ago on a cold January day. It was snowing – I don’t remember, it must’ve been – and the combination of whiskey and marihuana had deluded me into thinking that other people might actually want to read what I had to say.

That was proved wrong over and over again. But somehow the buzz of that very special winter remained and I’ve written ever since. I’ve written when no one was reading and I’ve written when everyone was reading and I’ve written because I’ve had to and I’ve written because I’ve wanted to and now it’s eight years later and holy fuck that’s a lot of writing.

That’s eight years of cursing. Eight years of clever pop culture references. Eight years of terrible pop culture references. Eight years of jokes that no one got. Eight years of jokes that only I got. Eight years of opinionated bullshit. Eight years of insight that surprises even me. Eight years of suffering through people asking me if I’m Gideon and lying to them or telling them the truth. Eight years of wondering what’ll happen if someone “finds out” and eight years of not really giving a shit. Eight years of wanting to be a better lawyer and finding ways to realize that it’ll take eight more.

Eight years of you: loyal, loving, silent readers. Eight years of the most idiotic comments I’ve ever read in my life. Eight years of interacting with some of the nicest people from across the country. Eight years of disappearing for months at a time and coming back to find you’re still here. Eight years of learning and hating and making mistakes and learning. Eight years of engaging with bigots and narrow-minded people and hoping against hope that maybe, just like in my day job, I affected one person. Eight years of shouting against the ever loudening din of the obsequious. Your rights are my rights. My rights are your rights. Shut the fuck up and let me watch my reality TV.

I’m tired.

But I will go on, for what else is there to do, but to do that which you want? Sometimes, you have to go a long distance out of your way to come back a short distance correctly. I’ve been to the zoo.

Thank you. Each and every one of you.

Ammianus Marcellinus relates an anecdote of the Emperor Julian which illustrates the enforcement of this principle in the Roman law. Numerius, the governor of Narbonensis, was on trial before the Emperor, and, contrary to the usage in criminal cases, the trial was public. Numerius contented himself with denying his guilt, and there was not sufficient proof against him. His adversary, Delphidius, “a passionate man,” seeing that the failure of the accusation was inevitable, could not restrain himself, and exclaimed, “Oh, illustrious C├Žsar! if it is sufficient to deny, what hereafter will become of the guilty?” to which Julian replied, “If it suffices to accuse, what will become of the innocent?” Rerum Gestarum, L. XVIII, c. 1.

Now get off my lawn.

20 thoughts on “8 mind-numbingly stupid years

  1. Jon

    Wait…this post is really confusing me…are there different writers on this blog and I just haven’t realized it? Looking at the archives, I see posts back as far as 1999. Also, if you were a teen when you started this blog 8 year ago, then the oldest you could be is 27. Right? I’m confused!

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    1. Gideon Post author

      Just go with it. This blog had two predecessors, because it started out on blogger, then at typepad and then I got my own domain, so I think a few original ones were lost. So I backdated the disclaimers to 2004 and I don’t know what the hell that 1999 post is.

      Forget the dates, just focus on the message, which is screw you and I love you, all at once.

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  2. FormerPDinGeorgia

    I found this blog close to 8 years ago. I was graduating law school and about to embark on my new career as a public defender. Unfortunately, I spiraled out of control and ultimately left the profession when I was unable to discover Gideon’s true identity. Getting an arm tattoo that says WHO IS GIDEON? was my lowest point. But, it has served as a reminder than in society, We are all Gideon.

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  3. Miranda

    Congrats on 8 years. So what if it isn’t always pretty? You put yourself out there. That takes some bravery. I have to work up nerve to just comment on blogs. Thank you!

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  4. Windypundit

    Hey man, for just a second there, I thought you were going to reveal your secret blogger identity. I’m a little disappointed.

    Whatever else has happened here, it’s been eight years of you giving outsiders like me just a slightly more realistic view of what’s really going on in the criminal justice system. I don’t know how much good that does, but it’s not nothing. I certainly appreciate you taking the time to do it.

    Also, you should run for Governor again.

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  5. WyrdWyrd

    That was a good quote you quoted there–that Roman innocent vs. guilty thing.
    But you know that already. :-P I haven’t been subscribed to the blog long. I don’t comment much because there’s usually not a lot I would have to contribute.

    Oh and then also another reason for not-much commenting: I like your blog, but some days I’m just not quite able to face the reality of the oppressive this or the horrible injustice that at that particular moment. Sometimes I just need to bury my head in the sand with some lol-cats or something.

    But I have no doubt the world is a slightly better place for your efforts. Hopefully, that will be enough.


    Furry cows moo and decompress.

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  6. Daniel Dorsey

    Scotch instead of whiskey, Butera cigar rather than pot. Cheers to 8 and for many more to come!
    Thanks for the great reads!
    DC PD

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  7. TKO

    Oh, we still read. And seethe. And rage. And on very rare occasions, we succeed at something that matters. Thanks for the fodder for the fire.

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    1. Gideon Post author

      Well hello! I was just mentioning you to someone the other day. Hope all is well wherever you are. Glad to hear you’re still around and reading.

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  8. TKO

    Still in the Wild Wild West and still reading! And someday, I’ll start writing again myself. I have things to say. Keep living the dream…

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  9. Skelly

    Glad to see that you’re still around and blogging. Keep pushing that boulder back up the hill, Gid. Who cares if it rolls back down again. The struggle is the point, and the fact that you’re still at it after eight years just warms this broken-down old PD’s heart.

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